I'm super stress.
Not about school work though. [Though maybe a tiny weeny part of it]
Hmm.. Let's list them out.

Firstly, you're my main concern I guess.
Though you may not know it, well, it's okay.
Then, you.
And next, you.
Maybe, you too.
Omg, so many worries are in my head.
And I can only expressed it here.
Because words are easier to type than to say out.

And if I can ever tell someone about all this, it will be great.
Maybe I'll just break down before the person.
Who knows right?

Problems in life are meant to be faced. We can't escape them. It's either this or that. All the worries are bugging me every day. I really can't take it. But I have to hold on. For some reasons. I have and need to.

I wanna pour it all out. Pour out EVERYTHING. But it's obvious that I can't do it here.
I want to help, but I dunno to help.
Or should I say, dunno how to start helping.
They're all bottled up. No holes/cracks to escape.
At all.

Just heard that my medical report is out.
And bro said the doctor wanna see and talk to me.
Omg, I seriously hope there's nothing wrong.
But I have a very bad feeling about it.
OMG.
I'm scared.
Urgh.
And my mother is down here nagging about it.
Like, at this point of time, she doesn't even seem to show concern?!
And she is like indirectly blaming me for not seeing the doctor at an earlier date.
As if I'll know what's happening in the future?!

Urgh, or maybe she is just expressing her concern in a certain way.
Well, hope so.
Omg, see and TALK.
The word 'TALK' really scare me out.
TOTALLY.

I can't take it.
I seriously can't anymore.

I'm sorry for everything.
For giving you false hopes.
I didn't mean it. Really.
I'm sorry.