Time is passing too quickly. Feels like I've only just taken my A levels exams and tadaaa, I'm getting back the results later after 2.30pm. Ugh. Not really looking forward to it because honestly, I'm afraid of disappointments. Not that I'm disappointed with my results if I score badly, but if my loved ones are disappointed in me. Feels like I've let them down or sth ya know. I mean everyone thinks being in VJ ascertains you to do well, score at least 3 As, get a good course in university blah blah. But seriously, I don't think so. I'm not a intelligent student, I struggle to even get 1 A. I have to work very, very hard so that I can scrap through the passing grade, to stay afloat in school. So I really thank God for seeing my through my 2 years there. It was sure tough for me, but God has been faithful.

And yes, I'd be lying if I said I'm not panicky for my results later. I'm afraid that my parents would be sad because of my grades. I'm scared that my teachers would be disappointed. I'm a type who gets jittery easily and loves scaring myself with the worst. Haha such a noob right. But yeah. I hyperventilated very seriously the other time I took my O level chinese results in sec 3. And it was only one subject leh. O levels results was better than before but i couldnt breathe properly because my heart was pounding so hard and fast. Ughhhhh. /: Many scenarios of what is gonna happen when Mr Lum hands me my results are flashing through my mind in repetition. Like what is he gonna say, how is he gonna say it, what will i react, how will he react, etcetcetcetc. I'm so so so so so so nervousssssssssssssss, seriously. RAWRRRR:((((((

I should probably stop thinking about it. The more I think, the more apprehensive I get, the more my heart beats fast, the more horrible I feel. I know this stress is mainly self imposed, so I'm gotta try my very best to let it go and be cooooooooooooooooooool. Yeah be cool. B) I'll be fine. It'd be alright. Take it eassssssssssssssssy.

I know what done cannot be undone. The change could be done during the exams which is obviously over. I've given my best shot, so now it's the time to accept whatever it comes. And what matter most is that my future has already been planned, so I just gotta take this step of faith and trust that God will guide me and lead me to the path He wants me to go.

Live long and prosper. It's 3am and I'm hungry. Time for a hot milo before bed(:
i knew you'd do that(: