Thank God the week has finally ended. My new job is very very very draining. And stressing. I think I have more white hair now than I had during my previous job. Sadded. :( But it is definitely more enriching. I am learning so many stuffs like typing all kinds of letters to plaintiffs, defendants, insurance companies, understanding suit cases, how people sue one another blah blah blah. Hahaha it's actually quite fun with grace around me too. (Y)Okay now for A levels results. I kinda screwed my GP up and till now I have no idea whyyyyyyy. I was very devastated because it was something that I didn't really expect. It made me cried like there's no tomorrow. The feeling was so horrible. Honestly, I took many days to get over it and not just 26 hours. Hah. It just felt so raw whenever I think of it or people talked about results. I felt so loser-ish. &seeing people cheering you on, supporting you, encouraging you, it's like your duty to smile and say you're alright because you don't want to disappoint them. They shouldn't go through the same misery like you did. You wouldn't let them either. It was really tough, I struggled a lot. I questioned God why. I'm still clueless but it's okay. One day, I'll understand. Through this, it made me realised that there are many people out there who care for me. My classmates, friends, family, and even people whom I've never heard from a long time. I was really amazed. And obviously very touched(': My heartfelt thanks goes out to everyone. Ya'll rock.
Yupp, not to worry because I'm feeling much better now. I'd guess that in this case, time can actually heal. Haha, I've never believed in time being the antidote but... ah well. Hehz. Now it's the university application thingy that is driving me craaaaaazy. RAWRRR.
Gonna explore other local courses and see howwwwww. Thank God we have a month to choose. I hate making choices. Urgh.
Wtv is it, I give thanks to God because He is the only one who will see me through it entirely. He gave me grades for other subjects to still enable me to enter uni. He always provides some way out. He made me realised what it meant by His plan and not mine. He is my strength. I'll survive this.
Before I end off, I just wanna say, pray for Japan. The vulnerability and uncertainty of life only accentuates the importance of cherishing one another and living our lives to the fullest, having no regrets. But more often than not, we fail to do so because we always think "this will never happen to us". Anything can happen anywhere, at anytime.
Or can they still?