i read this &my heart totally sank. though it's just a jpeg photo and the story might be fictional, but it still summons many thoughts to my head.

Have been encountering so many deaths lately - my aunty, uncle, a friend's dad, friends' grandmothers. &I just read a blog post about how my friend missed a chance to visit this lil boy whom he met at a hospital because he was two days late and the boy had already passed away.

Sigh.

I met my grandma today for the first time after her operation because she wanted to bring me to a new doctor. She is still recuperating and I don't think she'll be able to recover fully because of her condition. But watching her stepping on the escalator carefully, gripping the pole in the mrt firmly, walking slowly under the scorching sun just because of me really made me feel loved and touched. She looked so small and fragile, but so strong in life, living it with much vigor and strength. What amazed me most was that she could sense my frustration even though i was trying hard to hide it. She patted my back, encouraging me that the new medicine will make me feel better. With a smile on her face, she told me to not give up or be upset, even though i know this has been affecting her as much as it has been affecting me. My ah ma is really awesome.

I dont want to live my life full of many regrets. People may go, I may go, anyone may go anytime. I dont know when, I don't know how, I dont know why, but I know I shouldn't take life and relationships for granted.

You’ll never know what you had till you lose it. So don’t wait till you lose it to know what you had. Know what you have now.

&when loving is at the hardest, keep loving.

Indeed, it should be nothing left unsaid. but more often than not, we hold things back because of pride. so today, to every single one of you out there, thanks for being in my life. i may not know how to show it, i don't know what words i can use, and sometimes music can't even convey all my feelings and thoughts, but i just want you to know i love you for who you are.

"Laugh when you can. Apologize when you should. And let go of what you can’t change. Love deeply and forgive quickly. Take chances and give your everything. Life is too short to be anything but happy. You have to take the good with the bad. Love what you got. Always remember what you had. Forgive, but don’t forget. Learn from your mistakes but never regret. People change and things go wrong, But always remember that life goes on." - (via wordsandlyrics)