(:

2011-07-12T18:34:00.004+08:00

just in case i forget again,
Relinkkkkkkkkk :D

brevity of life;

2011-07-11T23:10:00.006+08:00

i read this &my heart totally sank. though it's just a jpeg photo and the story might be fictional, but it still summons many thoughts to my head.

Have been encountering so many deaths lately - my aunty, uncle, a friend's dad, friends' grandmothers. &I just read a blog post about how my friend missed a chance to visit this lil boy whom he met at a hospital because he was two days late and the boy had already passed away.

Sigh.

I met my grandma today for the first time after her operation because she wanted to bring me to a new doctor. She is still recuperating and I don't think she'll be able to recover fully because of her condition. But watching her stepping on the escalator carefully, gripping the pole in the mrt firmly, walking slowly under the scorching sun just because of me really made me feel loved and touched. She looked so small and fragile, but so strong in life, living it with much vigor and strength. What amazed me most was that she could sense my frustration even though i was trying hard to hide it. She patted my back, encouraging me that the new medicine will make me feel better. With a smile on her face, she told me to not give up or be upset, even though i know this has been affecting her as much as it has been affecting me. My ah ma is really awesome.

I dont want to live my life full of many regrets. People may go, I may go, anyone may go anytime. I dont know when, I don't know how, I dont know why, but I know I shouldn't take life and relationships for granted.

You’ll never know what you had till you lose it. So don’t wait till you lose it to know what you had. Know what you have now.

&when loving is at the hardest, keep loving.

Indeed, it should be nothing left unsaid. but more often than not, we hold things back because of pride. so today, to every single one of you out there, thanks for being in my life. i may not know how to show it, i don't know what words i can use, and sometimes music can't even convey all my feelings and thoughts, but i just want you to know i love you for who you are.

"Laugh when you can. Apologize when you should. And let go of what you can’t change. Love deeply and forgive quickly. Take chances and give your everything. Life is too short to be anything but happy. You have to take the good with the bad. Love what you got. Always remember what you had. Forgive, but don’t forget. Learn from your mistakes but never regret. People change and things go wrong, But always remember that life goes on." - (via wordsandlyrics)

2011-07-10T00:55:00.001+08:00

We're injured, but that just means we survived.

2011-07-07T23:48:00.004+08:00

cuz i just need that assurance that someone will actually stay.

forget it. i dont wanna do this anymore.

we will survive;

2011-07-05T14:36:00.004+08:00

you cant go weak now because there are always people out there who needs you to be strong.
a friend phoned me this morning when i was still in bed and she was crying so badly over the phone. it really breaks my heart seeing her like that. it's something that we can't do anything about it but to only accept, which sucks actually. Life is really full of happenings. It's like you havent even gotten over the previous waves of problems and here comes another. ABCDEFG. Sigh. everyday so drama. i can go film a drama series oredi.

That aside, I went to bed early last night like at 2am but i couldn't get to sleep properly till ard 5am. Zzzzz. i really gotta learn to take things easy and how not to make people's problems my problems.

2011-07-03T21:57:00.003+08:00

just because it's easier to hide more things behind more smiles and laughters.
so tired. and it's not just physically.
but it's killing me inside. i can feel it.

i wouldnt know;

2011-07-01T02:44:00.004+08:00

(via itsirrational)

Havent been getting a good sleep for the past few days. been thinking way too much about some stuffs and worrying about things that I probably shouldnt. for the past few nights, i could wake up at unearthly time of wee mornings and then get back to slp because it wasnt time for work. either that or i'll have nightmares and wake up feeling disturbed. Damn annoying. rawrrrrrrr.

tonight will be better. it will.
Dear God, take my troubled heart away. I need the peace.

2011-06-27T23:58:00.002+08:00

third dose of TCM today. when can i ever stop them. UGH. dear body, GWS.

yknow what i realised;

2011-06-24T02:03:00.004+08:00

that you became a sensitive topic to me whenever people ask me about you. &i'll never tell them because they dont know what's gg on. i'd rather not talk about you because it just brings me back to the state where i feel helpless and useless. honestly, seeing how your life took for a drastic turn sets me in for a rude shock. and i really dont know how to handle this at all. i dont want to see you losing yourself like that.

dont.

to my dear friend, stay strong.

2011-06-21T21:12:00.001+08:00

i will survive all these dramas.
Dear God, please keep her safe. And the other one too.

2011-06-19T00:08:00.000+08:00

i've learnt to not tell too much stuffs to a person.

2011-06-14T14:23:00.002+08:00

Slept like 13 plus hours straight the moment i came back from church camp. hahaha. totally pwned my record. i hate falling sick right after having a whale of time. :(( now my life is so boring staying at home sleeping and taking meds. :(((((

i dont wanna go workkkkkkkkkk.

2011-06-08T23:38:00.004+08:00

i love walking back home in the dark because i get to stare at the various light sources like streetlamps/car headlights and admire the different streaks of rays shinning out. though it feels that i'm hurting my eyes that way but hahahaa but, they're reallyyyy beautiful.
i have no idea why i didnt realise such amazing things ard me before.

be true;

2011-06-05T18:56:00.003+08:00

Did you say it
Did you mean it
Did you lay it on the line
Did you make it count
Did you look ‘em in the eye
Did they feel it
Did you say it in time
Did you say it out loud
‘cause if you did hun
Then you lived some
That feeling inside
That’s called satisfied

sometimes i just wonder.
do you ever mean all the things you said.

2011-06-01T22:15:00.002+08:00

everyday i tell myself "tonight is gonna be the night that i sleep early."
but i never fail to fail. :((

2011-05-30T01:30:00.003+08:00

you can laugh all you want, smile as much, crap like rubbish.

but at the end of the day, only you yourself knows what is going on in the inside.

when will this ever go away.

2011-05-29T00:33:00.002+08:00

it's quite hard to be a friend sometimes.

rahhhhhh.

2011-05-28T22:49:00.004+08:00

Kinda skipped dinner today cuz my stomach is giving problems again. Sighhhhhh. But it's ohgayz, i've milo to cheer me upz. Anyway, i went for a blood test recently and the results aint exactly good. So keep me in prayers orkhaaaaai. tyvm. :)

the getaway to genting on monday was really refreshing. it felt good to put everything aside and not talk to anyone except my parents who were with me. We watched Priest in 3D in the cinema there and gosh, the show was fantastic!!! And i think the lead actress is damn chio please. hehheh :D We caught the performance called "Glitz" there too and there was this lady who does beautiful sand art!!! I was so amazed at her work omg. She sprinkled some sand here and there and in just a few mintues a really pretty artwork appeared. OMG I JUST FOUND THIS WEBSITE http://showtimemalaysia.blogspot.com/2011/01/genting-presents-glitz.html #nostalgic hahaha i wanna watch it againnnnn.

The trip was short so i was back in 3 days actually. i cant wait to ninjaz away later in june again. yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!

feeling a tad nervous to teach the kids tmr. :O gonna pray very hard tonightttttt.

ohgayzzzz enough saidd. i'm feeling so tired even though i woke up at 1pm today. -___- haahaha okgay nightzzzz,

a story behind every "just wondering"

2011-05-27T11:11:00.001+08:00

An event that prompted the train of thought that led there. A song that triggered the memory that triggered the inquiry. A fleeting thought that wandered through your mind, causing you to wonder in the first place.

you wont understand;

2011-05-22T23:49:00.004+08:00

i dont wish to go through this alone. but what you're doing isn't making anything simpler. and when i dont say anything, it doesnt mean i'm okay. i just brush it all aside because i'm really tired of all the explanations.

in any case, let's just forget it. it's getting too much and i'm really sick of it.

everyone is just pretending to be someone they aren't, doing things they know they don't want. they can just put on any masks and change it whenever situation calls for it. and sometimes i really wonder would anyone get lost within themselves. because i just did.

i want an out. i need a break from everything.

2011-05-20T23:12:00.003+08:00

maybe you're afraid that your history might repeat itself.
but all that you're doing now is causing her past to haunt her.
~~and you dont know anything about her past, do you.~~
so what right do you have to make her suffer like that.
just to protect yourself.
yourself.

then what about her. do you even give a damn.

2011-05-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

i am not gonna say anything anymore.

----

2011-05-18T00:06:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt so damn helpless before. like how you desperately wanna help someone, but you cant because you dont know how. not even a single clue.

working with her, like they said, was an experience. i've never encountered someone like her. i thought i'd never ever have to face such situations. i thought it'd only happen to others. but obviously i was wrong.

so she left last week. honestly i felt relieved because i dont have to deal with the struggles of confusion and helplessness. and yes that's a real selfish thought. i feel so inadequate. i feel like a bad friend. and guess what, her dad called and spoke to me today. i won't write what he said, but that conversation really left me in a state of shock. He didnt scold me or anything, no harsh words were exchanged, no verbal abuse and so forth. It was a normal conversation coming from a father, whom i really think he's a really nice guy. then when everything ended, i felt as though my own self created world bubble burst and the beautiful mirage i forged disappeared. it was really bad. so bad that my body was literally trembling.

felt as though like everything just hits you like a bullet train. you finally comprehend what they all always say.

then i realised i'm so not ready to face this world.
too many complications. too much emotions. too scary.

i need a hug so badly now.

2011-05-17T23:12:00.006+08:00

i'm gonna be good and slp early.
No more ninjaz for tonight.
~~i hate gg to the hospital again.~~ ~~it's just another ant bite. it's ohkayyyyy.~~
:<

almost;

2011-05-17T01:34:00.006+08:00

Have you ever wondered what it is like to see yourself through someone else's eyes. Would you laugh at their perception of you being someone who you know you aren't. Or would you rejoice at the fact that you've hidden yourself so well.

I learnt that diverting topics to others instead of yourself makes everything easier. i hate opening outlets for someone to know you and then risk yourself of getting hurt. and it's not that i dont trust them because most of the time the problem is just that i dont trust myself enough.

just a thought. dont worry, i'm perfectly fine.

ugh.

2011-05-10T22:40:00.002+08:00

today was a rough day at work.
too many office politics going all around.
so much displeasure.
too many secret complaints.
everyone is bearing grudges against somebody.
and what's most amusing is no one says anything.

wow.

slow dancing;

2011-05-09T00:46:00.004+08:00

I'm currently running on 3 hours of sleep since Sunday morning. All because of the G.E results aired on television starting from 9pm to about 3 plus am?? :O But it's ohgay i'm still surviving cuz
IMMA NINJAZ.

Have been tuition-ing like some crazy tutor because my secondary schools kids are having their midyear exams these 2 weeks. Goshhh, it can sure be draining. thank God on this coming wed all the craziness will enddddd. and i'll be freeeeeeeeeeeeee.

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. running on adrenaline makes you high. ahahhaaha.
it's 1am and.... goodnightzxzxzx.

for my 'laosim'

2011-05-07T17:18:00.013+08:00

My grandpa's sister just passed away this morning at about 3.30am. And the situation was like a total replica of how my grandpa left us a few years back. It felt so horrible watching him lying helplessly on the hospital bed and I couldn't do anything. All I did was to just stand by his bedside and watched his life wither away right in front of my eyes. It was so solemn and depressing because we were all just waiting for the expected to happen even though we desperately didn't want it to. Sighhh. Do we really have to lose someone first before we really start appreciating them. I know it's morally wrong, but I realise I do take people for granted at times. /:

I'm not really close to this beloved relative of mine but it pretty much saddens me. Afterall, i knew her for 19 years. I remember how she used to pat my back and hold my hand, telling me to study hard and be filial to my parents. Each time i see her, she'd comment on how fast i've grown since the last time she saw me. But this year, she had some difficulties recognising me because of her dementia. The atmosphere was a little tense when we visited her during this CNY because everyone knew in their hearts that things would never be the same again. And because I am not fluent in my dialect, I could only communicate with her with simple teochew. Kinda sucks because I really wanted to talk to her more and now i can never do that anymore. :(

I really hope my cousin is coping well with the demise of her grandma.

I hate bidding someone farewell forever because it always leave me with regrets. Rawr.

-.-

2011-05-05T14:17:00.000+08:00

Seriously all the random spammers at my tagboard are making me laugh. Hahaha what a joke please.

Ohgayzzz, time to update my bloggerrrrrrr.

I'm so glad that a month has just ended!! Time really is speeding fast and uni will start in no time. Till now, I have no idea which course i should choose/which sch to go. Honestly, I did regret not choosing the course the I wanted because of my lousy GP grade. I dont know whether the course I would be taking in uni is the correct one or not. So many doubts and uncertainties of whether I'd enjoy what i will be studying, whether is it really what i want, whether can i find a job next time yada yada have been clouding my mind recently. It really sucks because my future feels so uncertain and dim.

DIM.

Oh gosh, what a word to use.

Ahhhhh wellllllllllllllllllllllz. But i know i gotta trust in God and rely on His understanding and not mine. Ugh, I shant think about it anymore.

Been rather.. uhmm i'd say distracted lately? I went to my tutee's house yesterday only to realise there was no tuition. -.- So i ninjazed out from work in tanjong pagar and rushed all the way to hougang for nothingt. double -.- Then i stayed up till 2 am last night doing qing's bdae card because i thought we're celebrating her birthday today. And guess what, it's actually next thurday. Triple -.- Rawrrrrr.

To think that I ponned work today feeling so drained and all. Win.

Ahh well, at least I can bring forward the time for my tuition today so i can go running in the evening. My arm is still aching like mad from badminton on tues night. i am so so so so weak. :((((

ohgayz. see youz.

this sucks

2011-04-22T01:35:00.002+08:00

it hurts to know you'll never remember things i'll never forget.
i can't fight this feeling anymore.

what are words;

2011-04-11T00:52:00.006+08:00

It's a monday nowww a 1.16 am. OH MAN. Work is starting in a few hours. -SAD FACE-

I haven't been getting enough sleep lately. Sighhh, I should stop going on the computer so much huh. And I realise i havent finished reading my book which is due in about 5 days time. Hahahaha awesumz.

Okay, i shall blog some exciting stuffs that happened recently to brighten up this post!!! F.P, Nigel and I decided to whip out a few dishes (okay actually it was like... 6? Hehe) for lunch one Sunday. We had tremendous fun screaming with the oil as it sizzled and popped. Cooked like 8 eggs for 3 pathetic ninjazs, who were having lunch at 5 o'clock. Hahaha. Oh with mushrooms spammed in almost every dish too. I'm currently mushroom phobic now. :O So we ended up stuffing ourselves because we didnt wanna waste food (not that we're greedy okay) HAHA.

The Loo-sers went for a trip at Universal Studios on Sat!! AND WE WORE OUR CLIQUE SHIRTS HOHOHO. So pweeety. :) & I rode on rides I never thought I would. Hahahaha probably as you grow older, you become afraid of roller coasters cuz you know you won't die? Heh, I have no idea. Battlestar Galactica was the most thrilling ride ever!! I love the Revenge of the Mummy one too but we only sat it twice! :( The Accelerator made me go dizzy but it was sure fun singing the Friday song my Rebecca Black while it turned. Haha! And Far Far Away Land is extremely GORGEOUS!!!!! My inner princess was let loose to the max. Hahahahahaha. I LOVE YESTERDAY VYEH MUCHHH. ♥ Just that i had to run all the away to SRJC early in the morning to catch the bus to USS and my legs ached the whole day!! Plus all the walking and jumping around USS just made it worse. Together with the roller coaster rides that caused strains on our necks, i woke up today (or technically ytd) feeling horrible with body aches all around. Rawrrr.

Okay, and after church we went to Cheryl's chalet in celebration to her POP!! Met sw at Nex, ate rubbish food then off to Pasir ris when it started to rain SO SO SO HEAVILY. ~~I swear~~ it was my first time seeing the lightning so near and hearing a thunder so loud!!! I literally jumped okay. No joke. So freaking afraid but God is goooood, He kept us all safe :) We had fun in the rain, running here and there to get into the nearest sheltered area. Umbrellas weren't of good use at all cause the rain was like a monsoon. We reached the chalet ard 7 plus and camwhored quite a bit. My photocount is increasing exponentially!! HEHEHEHEHEHE ^^ I shall aim to hit 3k before the end of the month. Hahahahahahaha. Meeting up with the others whom i havent seen for so long just felt great. It was certainly a fantastic time of gathering with PL lites, or namely the 2a2 peeps. I miss secondary sch lifeeeeee. :(

Okay, time to hit the bed naoooo. It's 2am :OOOO So gonna be a zombie at work later.
Nights earthlingszxzx.

;if you dont really mean them when you say them.

2011-04-04T21:53:00.002+08:00

Aunty lina is on MC, and the other temp staff quitted. So i'm alone buried underneath all the work today. ._. Sighzxzxzx 4 moreeeeeeee days. 2 more mthsssssss.

i have to survive.

I don't understand humans;

2011-04-03T09:09:00.003+08:00

How can someone who you trust so much lie to you so excessively. You told me it's for my good, you said you wanted me to do this because it'd help me. You made it sound as though you really wanted to help. And i believed you.

i did the best i could for you because i treasure our friendship. I accompanied you here and there because you said you were scared. I took time to meet up with you at your countless and persistent requests because i felt obliged as a friend to. I did all that because I thought it was necessary as a friend, a good friend.

I understand where you're coming from. But there isn't a need to do all these right. I mean, if you'd tell me the actual reason for doing such, i might even help. But the games you played made me realised that you don't value our friendship as much as i do.

Honestly, whenever you talk (or try talking) to me now, it hurts even more because I know that there's an underlying motive to it.

I'm really disappointed in you. and 'your friends' too. :(

if that's the end;

2011-03-28T23:58:00.006+08:00

After all that happened today, the feeling I've got, the facts I forced myself to face, I've decided to not look back anymore.
even though i know how much it can and it will hurt.

wishes;

2011-03-24T21:16:00.006+08:00

(Via quote-book)

I'm reading my tags there <<< and laughing to myself. Hahahahaha. Okay it's currently 11.30pm and I am supposed to be sleeping now. But, TGIF tomorrow! &i'm gonna meet F.P after work!! Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy(:

Anyway, you shouldn't miss listening this awesome song; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IjcJKe5pLus Totally ♥ right.

I know that simply wishing for stuffs wouldn't change anything. but i find it tough to reveal my actual thoughts and feelings. It's not that i'm afraid of you, i'm just afraid of the outcome that it might not be the way i wanted it to be. Especially when things are conspicuously different now, but more importantly is that you have changed. &have you ever thought that perhaps you don't really know me.

Okay, imma gonna crash now. My instincts just told me that it's gonna be a very busy day now that grace's mom is on leave. Which means that my boss will come to me directly and do stuffs. S:

But it's too late, too late to call
Are you out there?
Too late, too much to say

Wish you were here
Wish you well
If you'd only share this hell
But you leave, and stains are left on me

2011-03-22T23:52:00.001+08:00

tiredddddddddddddddddddddddddd.

:3

2011-03-21T17:36:00.004+08:00

I just ate bread for my tea break! Me is happygal_92. hohoho.

Gave work a miss today because my body isn't well yet. I hate the flu bug. Everyone is like getting hit. >:( So i spent my whole afternoon applying for my Uni courses. &i can finally say i'm doneeeee! Wooooohooooooo!! (Y) I'm gonna pray very hard to get into where in want nowwww.

Gonna fast from facebook for weekdays. So... probably I'll start blogging more. :)

March is endinggggggggg. Time really flies. I really hope the world won't end in 2012 ):

I know it's a very short post. I cant think of anything to blog about; my brain feels hollow after months of not studying. D:

2011-03-20T13:19:00.000+08:00

I cant smell nor taste anything nowwwwwww. this sucksss.

imma rocketeer;

2011-03-19T23:42:00.004+08:00

Another week has passed and I've yet to apply my uni courses. I really hate making choices. :( T Though I'm quite excited to start studying again actually!! I can finally make use of my study table which is currently collecting dust ever since A levels ended. Hah. But Eileen was telling me about how difficult is it to survive in uni because your friends are not with you anymore. No more classmates for you to bond with, only anti social lectures and tutorials acquaintances . /: Sighhhhhhhhhhh. To think that I found it hard to adapt to VJ during the first few weeks. What more now.

Work has been as draining as ever. And I just caught the flu bug (from my lawyer perhaps). I woke up today with my throat insanely burning (dw i'm not a vampire). It is so painfullll, gosh. So i ended up eating 2 ice cream today to sooth it. &they kinda helped. (Y) Still on a sneezing fit too, so.. uggghhh. I totally spent my whole saturday sleeping away and I didnt manage to meet justina to discuss our CM thing for church. :(( &she managed to convince me to not go Children Ministry tmr though it will be our first lesson teaching the kids!! I am so gonna miss them. -sad face-

I'm going shopping with my mom and aunt tomorrow @ amk hub!!! Gonna pray hard that my body can tank because I seriously need more clothes for workkkkk. Sigh working makes me so sian. :( I shall quit work soon so I can enjoy before uni starts. And that just reminded me that I havent settled on the courses. Double sighhhhhh.

Okay this is such a sad post. Gotta go bathe now before the drowsiness kicks in, just in case i end up sleeping in the toilet while showering.

Goodnightzxzxz.&yess i do missss yewwwwwwwwwwww.

;the pieces dont fit anymore.

2011-03-11T23:47:00.005+08:00

(via musicandlyricss)

Thank God the week has finally ended. My new job is very very very draining. And stressing. I think I have more white hair now than I had during my previous job. Sadded. :( But it is definitely more enriching. I am learning so many stuffs like typing all kinds of letters to plaintiffs, defendants, insurance companies, understanding suit cases, how people sue one another blah blah blah. Hahaha it's actually quite fun with grace around me too. (Y)

Okay now for A levels results. I kinda screwed my GP up and till now I have no idea whyyyyyyy. I was very devastated because it was something that I didn't really expect. It made me cried like there's no tomorrow. The feeling was so horrible. Honestly, I took many days to get over it and not just 26 hours. Hah. It just felt so raw whenever I think of it or people talked about results. I felt so loser-ish. &seeing people cheering you on, supporting you, encouraging you, it's like your duty to smile and say you're alright because you don't want to disappoint them. They shouldn't go through the same misery like you did. You wouldn't let them either. It was really tough, I struggled a lot. I questioned God why. I'm still clueless but it's okay. One day, I'll understand. Through this, it made me realised that there are many people out there who care for me. My classmates, friends, family, and even people whom I've never heard from a long time. I was really amazed. And obviously very touched(': My heartfelt thanks goes out to everyone. Ya'll rock. ♥

Yupp, not to worry because I'm feeling much better now. I'd guess that in this case, time can actually heal. Haha, I've never believed in time being the antidote but... ah well. Hehz. Now it's the university application thingy that is driving me craaaaaazy. RAWRRR.

Gonna explore other local courses and see howwwwww. Thank God we have a month to choose. I hate making choices. Urgh.

Wtv is it, I give thanks to God because He is the only one who will see me through it entirely. He gave me grades for other subjects to still enable me to enter uni. He always provides some way out. He made me realised what it meant by His plan and not mine. He is my strength. I'll survive this.

Before I end off, I just wanna say, pray for Japan. The vulnerability and uncertainty of life only accentuates the importance of cherishing one another and living our lives to the fullest, having no regrets. But more often than not, we fail to do so because we always think "this will never happen to us". Anything can happen anywhere, at anytime.
Or can they still?

2011-03-08T22:14:00.000+08:00

i have so much to blog about but i'm always so tired after coming back from work. UGH.

♥✞

2011-03-04T02:18:00.005+08:00

Time is passing too quickly. Feels like I've only just taken my A levels exams and tadaaa, I'm getting back the results later after 2.30pm. Ugh. Not really looking forward to it because honestly, I'm afraid of disappointments. Not that I'm disappointed with my results if I score badly, but if my loved ones are disappointed in me. Feels like I've let them down or sth ya know. I mean everyone thinks being in VJ ascertains you to do well, score at least 3 As, get a good course in university blah blah. But seriously, I don't think so. I'm not a intelligent student, I struggle to even get 1 A. I have to work very, very hard so that I can scrap through the passing grade, to stay afloat in school. So I really thank God for seeing my through my 2 years there. It was sure tough for me, but God has been faithful.

And yes, I'd be lying if I said I'm not panicky for my results later. I'm afraid that my parents would be sad because of my grades. I'm scared that my teachers would be disappointed. I'm a type who gets jittery easily and loves scaring myself with the worst. Haha such a noob right. But yeah. I hyperventilated very seriously the other time I took my O level chinese results in sec 3. And it was only one subject leh. O levels results was better than before but i couldnt breathe properly because my heart was pounding so hard and fast. Ughhhhh. /: Many scenarios of what is gonna happen when Mr Lum hands me my results are flashing through my mind in repetition. Like what is he gonna say, how is he gonna say it, what will i react, how will he react, etcetcetcetc. I'm so so so so so so nervousssssssssssssss, seriously. RAWRRRR:((((((

I should probably stop thinking about it. The more I think, the more apprehensive I get, the more my heart beats fast, the more horrible I feel. I know this stress is mainly self imposed, so I'm gotta try my very best to let it go and be cooooooooooooooooooool. Yeah be cool. B) I'll be fine. It'd be alright. Take it eassssssssssssssssy.

I know what done cannot be undone. The change could be done during the exams which is obviously over. I've given my best shot, so now it's the time to accept whatever it comes. And what matter most is that my future has already been planned, so I just gotta take this step of faith and trust that God will guide me and lead me to the path He wants me to go.

Live long and prosper. It's 3am and I'm hungry. Time for a hot milo before bed(:
i knew you'd do that(:

railwayyyyyyyy

2011-02-21T22:28:00.003+08:00

Okay back to blogging(: CNY is over but I'm too lazy to count my angpows. Heh, this year chinese new year was awesumz. No books/notes to lug around and mug at relatives' house. As carefree as a bird. (Y)

Gotta glimpse of the corporate world now that i'm working. Office politics and all that, like wow. But what touched me was the spirit of teamwork and the amount of OT the employees are willing to put in to get the job done perfectly. It's quite comforting to see your colleagues slogging their guts out together with you, cracking jokes every now and then to ease the tension and liven the atmosphere. Anyway, now that auditing is over, workload is very much reduced and they need not so many temp staffs anymore. So we're like rostered and thankfully I gotta go work 3 times a week nowww(:

My life is finally exciting for once. Went to Clementi with WQ and Vinc to take pretty pictures of the old railway tracks! We were supposed to meet to take capture the sunrise as well but I overslept till 6am. /: So I made my way there and got lost. -.- Nevertheless Singapore is a small country so I got reunited with them in an hour. Walking on the tracks and peering down at the gaps were thrilling. Hahaha, I was quite afraid that anyone would slip but God kept us all safe(: Love the vintage feel there. Felt like we were risking our lives and trespassing but we didn't care. Haha. And it was sure a good experience. It's quite cool that any photos can be shot the way you want it to, as long as you let your feeling guide you. For me, I think photography gives me an outlet to express my inner thoughts and feelings that I don't usually say out. Another awesumz stuff, I like.

Results are gonna be out in around 2 weeks time? Ughhhhhh.

I wish things were still the same as before.
Just because I dont tell you, it doesn't mean that I don't care. in fact, i think i care too much, all at the wrong time.

ABCDEFG;

2011-01-24T00:09:00.006+08:00

CNY shopping @ NTUC: My fav time for da yearrrrrrr! (:
Can't believe it's chinese new year soon. i'm 19 this year. OH GOSSSSSSSH.
Okay, blog more soonish. 2nd week of work tmr. Really hope i'll survive.
just cuz i miss your presence, and i'm still waiting.

Year 2010;

2011-01-04T01:44:00.001+08:00

&i'm still waiting for you to make that move you promised.

I'd guess the biggest hurdle in 2010 was for me to get through A levels. Now that it's over, it really feels like a huge load off my chest. Just as like what I've once told my very awesumz friend, the mugging period was like a period of total darkness, and it felt as though you're entering the jaws of death but it was too dark to realise. Totally suffocating as well. And when you're left with 3 papers or so...... HOHOHO THE LIGHT IS SO BRIGHTZXZX AND THE AIR NEVER FELT SO SO SO SO GOOOOOOOOOOD. :)

I started off a lil jittery for school in Jan, knowing that a big fat giant is waiting for me at the end. And the jittery feeling got worse after seeing my grades for CTs and Prelims. It was such a horrible feeling I tell you. Emo-ed here and there and everywhere. I'm really glad for friends who stood by me and put up with all my crappyness and such.

Okay, let's talk about other stuffs besides academics that happened. I remember having the whole canteen to the J2s only and it was ultimate shiokness :D Then when the J1s came and stole our seats (like srsly, even though we already placed our bags there) everyone was >:( Hahaha.

JMS session was fun! I posed as a very innocent J1 gurl with my very nice PL uniform with Daniel acting like a retainee. It was a total re-enactment of our own JMS with the then J2s. Except that the real part is no longer real. :) It's okay if it doesn't make sense. Haha. Anw, we should have videoed the whole scam down! On a sidenote, I think my junior class is filled with many chiobus and smart students!! (Y)

Oh right, another thing I enjoyed was interviewing the J1s for exco positions!!! Interact Club one was pretty cool because there were like 12 of us forming a semi circle around the poor interviewee. Lol. First Aid Club one wasn't so bad since there were only 3 of us. Handover/Installation for Interact was really nice. Like some kinda huge event with people from other schools being invited as well. Our juniors really did a great job I must say. imma was really touched(:

Fulldays/Halfdays were stuffs that I always look forward too. Farewell assembly was epic. The teachers really did a lot to encourage and spur us on. Studying in school till like 11+pm would be something that I'd never forget. And the 4 weeks of studybreak just before As as well. Like returning back to school for remedials and all, crashing C22 classroom and claimed ownership of it but eventually got kicked out reminds me of how my classmates and I went through As together. It's a really nice feeling, and I just can't put it in words. (:

Prom was (Y) We initially didnt want to attend at all but the SC people managed to somehow convince us. Nevertheless, it was a good time of bonding with friends and the stayover at MBS hotel is simply ♥. Though shopping for prom dress and shoes and all that were things that i didnt very much enjoy, but PRE/POST/PROM was :DD on a whole.

Also, I've learn to trust God more in whatever I do. I learn to love. I learn how to cherish people around me more. I learn how to not take things for granted. I learn how to get back up when I fall. I learn to persevere on though all else seems bleak.

The year 2010 will certainly be one of the greatest milestone in my life. And I really thank God for everything that happened, be it good or bad. (:

free timeeeeeeeee aplenty

2011-01-03T01:12:00.003+08:00

Yay it's the new year!!!! (:

It has been a reaaaaaaally long time ever since I blogged. I'm so glad that I can spend my CNY eating and slacking and eating instead of worrying over the upcoming common tests. Heh heh, School? What school??????

HEHEHEHE.

Life is awesumz, for now. I wanna do a reflection for 2010 actually, but looking at the time, another day la ok. Hahaha, going online is so distracting. I just finished watching this Taiwan drama titled 海派甜心! Best show ever, srsly. The animations and all that visual enhancers shi zai de lor. Imma gonna use more cheena to brush up my rusty Chinese because watching cheena shows makes me fall in love with chinese once again. Hahahahahaha. 我也喜欢戏里的华文歌曲！它们好好听喔！

Okay, that totally turned out pretty retarded. Lol. Me go drink Milo then sleeeeeep. Night babesss(:

2010-12-20T01:40:00.002+08:00

All i wanna do right now, is to curl up in bed with my book and a hot cup of milo. Then off the dreamland. But my hair isn't dry yet and it's already 1.45am on a monday morning. >:(

say what???

2010-12-03T23:19:00.013+08:00

(via loveyourchaos)

;End of As.

Current mood: Still in self denial. (Yeahhh Edwin, I'm lagging)

Feels so surreal now that everything has ended. I mean like, hey it's done. Completed. Accomplished. 2 years of JC life officially ended. OVER.

Time really flies. I remember the very first time I set foot in VJ was... okay let me check my archives.

MONDAY, FEBRUARY 02, 2009

Orientation day 1.

I guess I shldn't be going in details of what happened. If not this post is gonna be like ______. haha.

Just that I'm really convinced that VJ is really a onesecalsocannotstopcheering school. I bet they got like a whole lifetime supply of Brand's Chicken Essence kept in their admin office or smth, &the students there kope like 125223423 bottles everyday before starting school. Which, I reckon, explains their endless supply of energy for cheers.

Anyway, today as pop was driving into my lovelyyy school,

E: "Pa, how come here got hawker centre one?"

P: "That's your canteen la."

Ownzxz right. See, I'm so not used to JC life.

Let's drown ourseleves with our tears, or finish up the MamaLemon detergent in our kitchens, or just hold our breaths for >3 mins.

Okay, I'm kidding. I will survive.

Yeah, I didn't enjoy orientation. I so looked forward to going home that whole week. I ponned the sea carnival which was supposedly the best part of the whole orientation. I skipped the mass dance at suntec. I refused to sing the school song. I didn't like the school cheers. I thought the school was huge because I got lost many times within the compound.

Nevertheless, I spent about 23 months there. And during those times, VJ changed me. Friends I made there taught me a lot of things. 09S37 is an awesome class, and I really mean it. Till this date, I still have no idea why all our tutors are males but who cares anyway, they're great. Lum FTW. Hahahaha.

The first official day of school after all the orientation was terrifying. Walking into a class (oh, with aircon! Srsly I was amazed at that point in time) with a whole back row of blueuniformgirls intimidated me. AND more people came in groups and pairs and whatnot. I was alone. I was so depressed. I was extremely lonely. My first friend was Mr Lum. Hahahahahaha. Okay anyway, I managed to talk to Joy because we were both the only ones from each of our sch. Quite sad right. But PL is a very very very minor stakeholder in VJ, so whatmore can I expect. Junior meet senior session was horrible. Don't ask me why kthxbyebye. But our senior class is da best!! I LOVE MY ANGEL(: Our r/s were much better as compared to with our junior class this year. Oh wellz.

Of course, my life in VJ will never be completed without the Loo-sers!!! They played a major role of making me feel at home in VJ, helping me in my studies (with one like super pro in bio, another in chem, another in math, another in gp, another in econs) BCME + GP all covered can. I'll never forget all the retarded things we did, outings we went, how we almost successfully sneaked up to the sky gardens at Marina Bay Sands w/o paying, camwhoring in random toilets, pigging out, wanting to book a trip to Genting up but till now it's still undone. Lol. A really big thank you to Beatrice, Renee, Meiwei, Suetfar and Wanqing! ♥ You guys rock.

Okay anyway, I gotta edit what I said previously because I'm no longer in the denial mood over As but currently stepping into the world of my new found freedom already. Reason being I took a few days to type this post. Opps. Hehe.

Surviving A levels was indeed a challenge. It was mentally, physically and spiritually demanding. Really, every MSN convos, facebook wall posts, text messages, verbal and traditional notes for encouragement served as an impetus for me to press on. Thanks everyone, for accompanying and seeing me through this seemingly major phase of my life.

And of course, God was the One who has been faithful. I know that w/o Him by my side, I'll just crumble up and die or something. Or maybe I'd just give up because the whole process of mugging and all was tremendously tedious. Just ask any A level student to vouch for it. Seriously, S'pore education system needs a revamp. 3 years of JC life, perhaps? It should be less stressful even though it's longer. Hah. Okay forget it, it's over(:

I really want to give thanks to God because of all the wondrous things He have done. It's impossible to state them all here, but throughout this period, I could really see Him working in my life. I didn't have any insomnia at all during A levels like I did during prelims/common tests. It was really amazing because God taught me what it means to really trust in Him and not worry about anything. What it means that my future is secured in His hands. What it means that the results I get for A levels doesn't determine my future because God does. Though some papers were tough, some were weird, He saw me through every single one of them. He was there to answer my fervent incessant prayers during the last few minutes before the paper started and whenever I got stumped by the questions. He is my supplier of peace and guidance. Indeed, God is good, all the time.

I admit that sometimes I don't trust God as much as I want to. It is when I rely solely on my own strength rather than His. I'm an imperfect human, I tend to let emotions rule my head at times. Not only in areas like studies, but in relationships, conflicts and as such. I am a worry freak, I panic easily. I struggle to let God take 100% control of my life even though I pray to do so. I know when something is wrong but I still do it. But God is merciful because He is forgiving. A thousand times I may have failed, but His mercy remains. And I know "His power is made perfect in my weakness; Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." I fall, I learn, I grow. God's patience with me makes everything perfect.

Our God is an awesome God

He reigns from heaven above
With wisdom power and love
Our God is an awesome God

God made me whole. Accepting Him into my life is something that I'd never ever regret.

don't try;

2010-11-28T23:46:00.002+08:00

(via 365words)

Supppp, back to blogging, hoho. Yeah I know As ain't over yet, but oh well, party mood on already. Hehehehehehehehe.

Okay so Nex is opened! Went there with my parents today and it was really, really, really crowded. Not all shops are opened yet, and I can't wait for the cinema and library to do so!!! OMG CAN YOU IMAGINE, ONCE A HEARTLAND PLACE LIKE SERANGOON TRANSFORMED INTO SOMEWHAT A CITY-LIKE PLACE JUST BECAUSE OF THIS SHOPPING MALL NAMED NEX WHICH IS SUPPOSEDLY BIGGER THAN ION. (Y) Nex should be called as atom or something since it's bigger. Hahaha, okay ignore that humour.

Yay, &I finally shopped after like 82782364468723 years!!! Bought a dress, 2 tank tops, a pair of slippers, nice long necklace and a black slouth bag! YES I KNOW IT'S A LOT. Anyway, I think it's my first time spending so much in like 1 hour? Hah. De-stress luh ok :)

Okay, better stop playing so much.

THURSDAY HERE I COME. NO MORE PSEUDO FREEDOM BY THEN. I'M SO EXCITED. MY HEART GOES SHALALALALA. :D

too much, just too much.

you said;

2010-11-27T00:15:00.009+08:00

;swings help to heal a broken heart.

though it's only for a short period of time when you're on it, it beats nothing at all.

Just so you know. I can't take a liar.

better in time;

2010-10-07T20:18:00.005+08:00

The countdown starts. The atmosphere in school is very much tense now, and everyone is doing his or her own final sprint before the As. Sometimes I do get weary of all these, wondering why am I wasting my life away sitting somewhere on this Earth, burying my head under the notes/papers. But time again and again, I never fail to find the answer to it.

Daniel told me that now is the time when support from friends and family is the most important, I can't help but to agree. Random texts and notes of encouragements, telling me to hang in there or to persevere, from friends really do help a lot. Though I might be ranting and grumbling and all, but deep down such stuffs secretly make my day. And even though they probably wouldn't read this at all, I just wanna say thank you for everything. It is where I derive my strength from, knowing that I've people who care and I'm not walking through this alone.

A levels might not be actually so ridiculously daunting after all. All I gotta do is to keep holding on, keep believing, keep having faith. It's time to rid all the negative thoughts from my head, put on a positive attitude and face it bravely. I shouldn't waste anymore time complaining about this and that, lamenting about crappy results which I can change, as long as I put in every effort. I'll survive the exam, giving my best shot, knowing that God will always be by my side.

I shall, will, can, must.

And become even stronger both spiritually and mentally after this last and final major exam because it doesn't kill.

This is probably my last post before A levels. It's time to adopt the right mindset and just do it once and for all.

"Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today. The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."

(Exodus 14:13-14 NIV)

the Author of our Faith;

2010-10-03T20:59:00.003+08:00

(via mynolitafairytale)

Just came back from a night run. The air was cool with the wind gently touching your skin as you ran felt really refreshing. It kinda helped in clearing my mind and releasing whatever emotions I had been bottling up for so long.

I think I have this strange affinity with animals. I just got chased by this seemingly harmless puppy (at the first sight) till it started running towards me as I ran past. I WAS ALMOST FRIGHTENED TO DEATH OK. It was only 2 inches away from me before the owner realised what was happening and distracted the puppy. That was a really close shave otherwise I think I might have already ended up with dog's bites (for the worse). >.<

Beat's cat as well! I probably secretly smell like a fish or something. It wouldn't stop chasing me when I went to her hse!! :( And even when I used her washroom, it camped outside just to wait for me to come out. -.- Scary much.

Gonna disappear from the virtual world very soon. Will be back after 2 Dec. I've realised the importance of trusting God for His plans never fails. If He brought me through O levels, I'm sure He'll see me through A levels too. God is omnipotent, He's all powerful and all I have to do is to have a childlike faith.

Till then.

Mehhh;

2010-10-01T00:04:00.006+08:00

(via badgirlsgoeverywhere)

~~swinging high up on swing,~~browsing through pictures of stars,
blowing bubbles,
go running,

~~and my usual kitkat galore.~~

all doesn't seem to help much this time round.

I gotta trust and have faith.

In God, in myself.

2010-09-30T23:43:00.004+08:00

my grades for prelims suck a big time. and i really mean big time. probably the worst results i have ever gotten throughout my life in vj. just tell me how bad can this get.

it's not that i've high expectations for myself which have led me to ranting and feeling so despondent. and the fact that i couldn't even meet my low expectations just made everything worse.

RAWR. :(

things ain't looking positively for me. not at all.

God never fails;

2010-09-25T22:46:00.007+08:00

&there's always light after the storm.

Suppppppppppp!

Prelims has officially ended for me yesterday(: I'm happygirl_92 nowww. Hehe.

Yes, the 27 days had indeed been trying. Honestly, I felt like giving up many times. I mean, who won't right. But if others who went before us survived, we will too. Take heart my friends! We will surely pwnzxzx A levels and look forward to 2 dec (for all bio students) or earlier, for it will be our long awaited liberation day! The day when we finally see the beaming light in our world again. (:

Truth to be told, actually I'm feeling rather fearful about everything. It is just so.. I'd say uncertain? I mean like what if whatever you're doing now only equates you to having DDDD or worse. The thought of 'If you screw A levels, you screw your life' theory is pretty daunting. &Never in my life have I gotten above D for my sciences. Not forgetting to mention GP as well. And when you kept thinking and mulling over it, it just sucks you into a deranged downward spiral. UGH. @.@

But thankfully, I've always God to fall back on. Because deep down, I know He's my strength, my shield, my tower, my deliverer, my ever present help in times of need. I admit that sometimes I find it difficult to summon the strength from within, but friends are always there pushing and cheering me on. I profess that it's my faith that keeps me going, enabling me to grow stronger each time I feel despondently weak. And I really thank God for not giving up on me for my own human weakness, the times when I allowed myself to think negatively and be blinded by fear. God is just so awesome in His abounding love that no one can ever fathom. Me loves Him very muchie(:

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. - Jeremiah 29:11

Love this verse. Love the assurance. (:

Life has evidently changed much ever since I left PL. But I really do hope to continue to speak of His great love whenever I can and should. And to abandon my human fears when doing so. To the nanyang-ers, don't give up kay! Remember we are NaCl! Hehe.

Went for the Day of prayer for missions today. I still miss those kids from Care of Cambodia, and I felt his pang of regret for not going for mission trip this year. :( Oh man. Anyway, it was really good to see Norman and Fi back in Singapore. They brought along 2 Khmers pastors! &I heard they went to Night Safari yesterday. Haha, so kewwwwt right. (: Left 3/4 way for tuition and then I finally managed to run again after so long! (: The breeze was refreshing because it rained in the afternoon. The ground was obviously still wet with puddles of water here and there but I had fun skipping over them. Yea, self-created entertainment I know. Hahaha. Then I had dinner with my bro and mom before he went back to camp again. :((( He just came out this morning and had to go back tonight. -.- SIANZXZXZX, moreover he's not in his best state of health. :( I don't like army. >:(

Anw after my totally ambrosial mixed rice (i have no idea why it was so delicious, probably cause it was my most relaxed meal ever since prelims :D), I came home and ate some mooncake + chocolates. And then I accompanied my mom to Popular in Heartland mall. And there we bought this gelato icecream. MAD I TELL YOU. When you're not studying, the only thing you do is to eat. Continuously. Hahaha.

On a random note, I think Neopets should seriously have a neopets chat. Like that we don't have to communicate through Neomail.

Okay I think I shall go read my Midnight Sun (YAYEEEEE! (:) with a hot cup of milo before heading to bed. Goodnight ppl. (:

House of mirrors;

2010-08-03T19:29:00.006+08:00

(via *December Sun)

I know I'm not supposed to be blogging. but, may I have some leeway?
Just because we have faith in Someone who is much greater than all these.

In a moments' time, you don't have to be afraid.
Cause fear is just a lie, open up your eyes.
-Strong Enough to Save by Tenth Avenue North.

holding back;

2010-07-26T19:56:00.004+08:00

(via iamblessed)

just because you made something very simple so complexed to comprehend, so difficult to care, so dangerous for me to love.

Hellooooooooooooooo world!

Life is such a mad rush and sometimes I am just so tempted to give up and nua at one corner, stone and watch the world passes by. RAWR. Down with like flu for a week and still counting, booooo. &I cough to rid the unbearable itchiness in my throat so hard that I feel as though my throat will bleed anytime. UGH. No more dear chocolates -> no more happiness. Oh man. )):

Results for CT2 haven't been satisfying, and gosh, I'm filled with apprehension now. I don't wanna screw my A levels up. ):

~~I think~~ I'm gonna hiatus till prelims are over, at least.

Let's just remain a positive attitude about studying.

PRESS ON EVERYONE!

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.

Because He lives, all fear is gone.

Because I know He holds the future,

And life is worth the living just because He lives.

IT'S A CHANCE WE GOTTA TAKE;

2010-07-10T21:28:00.009+08:00

Many a times, we use the words like 'Haha' and 'Lol' so frivolously that in fact, we don't actually mean it. Sometimes, we use them for the sake of easing up the atmosphere because we're conspicuously majorly tense up on the other side. And maybe to create a facade that we're fine, that everything is alright, that all is well.

Coupled with the fact that the intonation is left to the imgination of the other party, it's easier to mask our true emotions under the ostensible cheerfulness. Probably that is why it's easier to feign everything with the usage of instant messaging and texting, in the absence of any real life communication.

Honestly I've done it many times to others, and I'd ascertain that it's vice versa. We are just afraid of falling under the label of being a nuisance for grumbling too much, and that others might just get sick of it one day. While we want others to open up to us, we find it hard to open up to others.

Perhaps this cumulates to why it is so much more difficult now to really enter someone's life.

I still stand here holding up the roof,

cause it's easier than telling the truth.

no point;

2010-07-09T20:39:00.004+08:00

(via creativeinspiration)

This week has finally come to an end. School days are brutally energy suckers, no amount of sleep/rest time is able to compensate what have been expended. It's like outflow exp > inflow exp; a ~~BOP~~ energy deficit. RAWR.

My CT2s are really screwed. ): And like 8 more weeks to prelims?! Who am I kidding manzxzx. I can't wait for Dec 2. Anyway, one of my T3A draft just got rejected by Lum. ): And his comments were "Writing style" Huh?! Like how am I supposed to know what he meant, whatmore re-edit/:

I heard it was SJ's day back in PL. And I wanted so badly to go back but I couldn't and didn't. Tiffy wanted so go back as well, so that the juniors would salute her since they're in full U. Tsk, as scheming as ever, #5. But I'd guess it's okay, because I'm like that too. HAHAHAH.

TGIF(: My earliest day of the entire school week. Managed to reach home around 2pm which was (Y). Then I spent the rest of my day lazing around in bed reading my storybook, and then concussing out till around 7pm. NFB. (:

Ahh well but I still feel so drained and majorly exhausted despite the afternoon nap. -.-

blend the rainbow;

2010-07-06T21:07:00.005+08:00

(via worldofpossibility)

i was so afraid that we might drift apart once again. but thanks for making my worries unfounded.

First day of schooooool! (Y)

Everything was alright except for the fact that I was super sleepy. /: But other than that, the day went well. (Cause the teachers haven't return us our tests papers (except Bio MCQ) yet.)

Tomm is gonna be a looooooooong day. Thou shall cultivate good sleeping habits and sleep early tonight(: Okay, I gotta rush tutorials now that CT2s are over. Till then.

2010-07-03T01:19:00.002+08:00

After avoiding that particular song for 3 whole years, I finally mustered up my courage and listened it all the way till the end. Once. Twice. Thrice. Till everything hit me right straight, and memories resurfaced so clearly that the same old feeling returned.

I'm really sorry, even up to now.

FORTRESS;

2010-07-02T15:36:00.004+08:00

Yay, CT2s are over(: After like how many weeks of studying and studying and still studying, I've finally survive through the 4 days of horror. (Y) Totally got pwned by chem, maths and bio, and owned by gp and econs. So technically I didn't survive. Haha. &like I lost 2 kg in a short span of 4 days?! HAHAHA. To think that I stuffed myself with so many kitkats. I can go open my own slimming centre and make my customers take not pills, not some obscure plastic wrapping or whatever that is called but exams. Confirm chop chop effective. :D But it's either that or my weighing machine has a problem. Haha, oh well, I rather delude myself in this case.

Anyway, we visited Marina Bay Resorts ytd! It didn't occur to me that such a place existed in Singapore. And I was thoroughly amazed by the shuttle service because it was top notch. The ambience was perfect for nua-ing, seriously. We had many adventures, like one when we nearly managed to defy gravity and travel up to the 57 storey of the hotel but got stopped by an ohsovigilant security guard. ): &we almost went up a bus that goes to Johor. Haha.

Today was another awesome day of going tekong early in the morning to witness my bro's POP. But my dad couldn't make it cause he was sick. ): So I accompanied my mom there and both of us got lost in the army of guys while looking for my bro to put on this cap for him. I felt as though I was trapped in a maze ok. All I could see were green bodies. They all too tall lah. &yay, the torture is over for him! For now. HEH.

I'm currently marathon-ing my channel 8 drama series. Missed like 4 days in a row cause of exams. So it's now timeeeee to relax before everything starts again. :D Ohohoh!! I found my long long looooong lost small pillow under my mattress last night! Wheeeee! I thought it was like gone forever, but NO! It has always been ~~with~~ under me! :D &I hugged it dearly to sleep last night(: I promise you my dear small pillow, you have my word that I will never ever let you go again.

My mom says I grew taller. Wah nice lah, I so old already still growing. I think I've got a serious overdose of growth hormones or something. Okie, I shall go upload pictures to facebook now.

Solitude;

2010-06-28T19:36:00.006+08:00

CT 2.

~~Monday - GP & Econs.~~

~~Tuesday - Chem.~~

~~Wednesday - Math.~~

~~Thursday - Bio.~~

Thursday is my liberation day(:

Fri - Mon: NO SCHOOL!

And Bro's POP is on friday. Yay, everything fits perfectly. (Y)

2010-06-24T22:46:00.001+08:00

Did you ever talk to God above?
Tell Him that you need a friend to love.
Pray in Jesus’ name believing
that God answers prayer.

Have you told Him all your cares and woes?
Every tiny little fear He knows.
You can know He’ll always hear
And He will answer prayer.

You can whisper in a crowd to Him.
You can cry when you’re alone to Him.
You don’t have to pray out loud to Him;
He knows your thoughts.

On a lofty mountain peak, He’s there.
In a meadow by a stream, He’s there.
Anywhere on earth you go,
He’s been there from the start.

Find the answer in His Word; it’s true.
You’ll be strong because He walks with you.
By His faithfulness He’ll change you, too.
God answers prayer.

♥

2010-06-21T00:25:00.003+08:00

I realised I actually do love stars a lot(:

Just by looking that them makes me feel lighthearted.

&feel much better too. (Y)

Thou shall call this star therapy.

rain;

2010-06-17T02:00:00.002+08:00

;nobody is perfect.

Life has been a mad rush these few days. After the youth retreat were many more birthday celebrations and outings. Rawrrrrrr. Sometimes you just feel like coping yourself at home and be a recluse, but obviously you can't.

Just a mere one week before school reopens. And I'll embark on my journey of midyears exams straight away. The worst thing is, I've never felt so unprepared in my life before. This sucks. ):

I shall stop grumbling and go to sleep. Tmrw will be a better day.

Somebody, give me a push. you just don't know how much you mean to me.

I ♥ my God(:

2010-06-14T03:30:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone! I'm back from youth retreat! (:

I've decided to blog about it now (even though it's an ungodly hour) because I just ate my supper and I don't wanna sleep yet in case I grow fat. Hahaha.

Okay, so i woke up late again on friday. &Bel's mom had to pick me up at my house instead. I'm sooooooo sorry but really thank you Aunty! I greatly appreciate it! (: For some reasons, I just couldn't hear the alarm ring. Probably because it was set using Justin Bieber's voice and it sounded like a lullaby to my subconscious mind. Haha. Anyway, truth to be told, I didn't go to the camp with a very good feeling because many stuffs happened prior to it. Moreover, I know that I was spiritually dry. But I testify that God is really amazing because He spoke to me throughout the whole camp. Be it speaker sessions, worship, prayers and as such, He assured me of my myriad number of insecurities, pressures, fears and doubts. Jesus is awesome(:

I've learnt that He is the one who I should depend on. He is the one who I can tell everything to. He is the one who I can run to and hug tightly should I encounter any problems. He is the one who knows whatever I face, however horrible I feel. He is the one and only one who knows me inside out. I don't see a reason why I shouldn't turn to Him. Rather, I see all these so clear, complemented with all the real life experiences and encounters, I'm absolutely fully convinced He is definitely real and present in my life.

The painful goodbye to PL one year back which portended the cesssation of the daily morning sharings/devotions and singspiration sometimes leaves me feeling a tad empty in VJ. It feels like you need God to kick start your engine for the day or else school will be boring and slow and whatnot. I'd guess that's perhaps why I wanted so badly to join F.P at AC. But it's okay because I know this is a time of my life that onus is on me to my own morning devotion. Though I might be weak at times, verses that I receive at times never fail to spur me on.

I finally re-found my faith in prayers, reignited my passion for Him, renewed my heart, restarted my own personal relationship with Him. And I feel this tremendous sense of happiness all over again. Indeed, this is an inexplainable joy, unfathomable mirth that I am filled with, only when I have God in my life. I really hope one day everyone will be able to experience it as well. It's something so awesome that we should spread this joy all around to infiltrate the world. And we gotta start from the people around us(:

One day when I meet God in heaven, I'll tell Him that I have survived life.

"God is my strength and portion forever" - Psalms 73:26.

2010-06-10T23:37:00.001+08:00

Ohhh gosh, Ignite is tomorrow. &i haven't pack yet. Awesome.

RAWRRRRR, I will survive.

2010-06-09T21:24:00.005+08:00

It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right. It's right.

I had a hard time convincing myself that, but really, thanksxzxxzxzx. I feel so much better after it(:

I'm set;

2010-06-06T23:50:00.003+08:00

is it safe to say; that i'm officially missing you.

First week of June - gone.

This is getting way way way too fast. /:

One dose of medicine completed! I'm a happy girl! 2 more strips, which means 20 more tablets! And I'm proud to say that I can swallow tablets pretty well right now, though I'm still quite afraid to take tablets the size of a panadol. Heh. Give me some time, I'll train myself well and hard and maybe one day I will be able to swallow one big cannon ball.

Anyway, I just sustained this mysterious cut on my eye. ): I totally have no idea what happened, like seriously. It's not that painful, but it's extremely uncomfortable whenever I blink. Rawr.

Oh, and I think my blog shall progressively die off starting from this post. Gotta spend more time off the distracting virtual world. I'll miss you blogger. ): Sad things aside, I shall go sleeeeeep now. Haha. The lethargy from everything is consuming every single cell in my body. Oh, before I end off, the quality of my sleep is improving! Thank God and thank you for all the prayers dears!

rawr

2010-06-03T23:54:00.003+08:00

My handmade lunch for mom today! :) Sandwiches are awesome, especially when you spend time preparing and then eating them together with your loved ones. YAY! Oh wait, throw in a coffee (there! Inside the 555 vacuum flask!) and everything becomes as perrrrrrrrrrrrrrfect as it should(:

Went back to school today for this interview training workshop. Then studied a bit at home, and i finally played badminton with Bel! (: AND AND AND i managed to hype her up for Ignite! (: Then off the macs to meet Renee and we had our ~~candle~~ fluorescent light dinner in my house! We sure did have a great time eating with her reading my 8 Days and I studying my Kinetics notes. Haha.

I'm deaaaaaaaaaaad tired. ): But whenever I lie on my bed, my mind is in such a mess that i can't get to sleep just yet. RAWR, and i've been spending fruitless time tossing and turning and rolling all over the bed. Double rawr. Sighzxzxzx. Anyone has any remedyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. /:

Gotta return back to school tomorrow. Then off to tuition and garden macs to study. Triple rawr.

God, grant me the strength to face all these.

power low;

2010-06-01T22:52:00.006+08:00

Sleepover @ Renee's house yesterday was (Y) !! (: We started camwhoring with her laptop camera at 1.30am all the way till 2 plus. Gosh, it was really insane.

Caught Shrek 4 at Bishan and I realised how much of a deprived childhood I had. My spouse is the duck inside the movie. Haha, she's huge!!! &we finally managed to shop for Matt's birthday presents! (:

I woke up today feeling real drowsy, BUT my spouse was already watching some korean stuffs online while enjoying her pancake. This is what i call, a Duck life. Haha. We studied a bit and it was quite expected that both of us couldn't tank. So in the end we decided to go back to sleep. =X Obviously i crawled home to my own Mr. Bed cause it is much more comfy :) Haha.

Just finished the powerpoint slides for service . Oh man, i'm feeling so lethargic already and i reaaally don't feel like doing any other thing except to sleep. ):

Gotta return back to school tomorrow for lessons. Yay, finally.

):

2010-05-30T23:01:00.006+08:00

I'm sorry, I really really really didn't mean to hurt you in any way. I didn't know just that could trigger so many thoughts, stir up so much emotions.

Raahhh, when will this ever end? I feel so restricted, honestly speaking.

It wouldn't mean so much if you didn't care at all. sometimes it just hurts so bad not having you here.

orange county

2010-05-28T22:42:00.003+08:00

went grocery shopping with my mom and dad at ntuc. on the way back, we saw this flash in the sky in a split second &both my mom and my dad exclaimed it unanimously, "Thunder!" Hahahahahaha! No wonder they got married!! Gosh, I couldn't stop laughing for a whole minute! :D They're just too kewt, seriously. (:

Then it started raining and my mom was scampering to find the nearest shelter. My dad did the total opposite. He was calmly strolling, saying something like, "I love walking in the rain!" And i was behind him doing the same, feeling the same way too! (: Now I know where I got my genes from. Hahaha.

Okay then my mom who was 3 metres ahead started walking, which made my dad and I LOL. I think she realised that running was of no use because we were in the park and the nearest shelter available was my block which is far far away. Hahahahahahahaha.

2010-05-27T00:29:00.000+08:00

happythings: toscanoirriverente:

LOL.

booooo

2010-05-26T15:13:00.003+08:00

HBL is really really really tedious. I feel like i'm wasting my life away doing silly stuffs like HBL for PE. Omggg, 1.5 more day to go before i'm free again.

One math quiz is down, thank God. But tomm they're gonna post another one. -CRIES. The Forex market thing is highly amusing. I was on a losing streak like real terribly, but then after a while when i refreshed the page, i was making thousands bucks! (Y) &so i happily i printed that screen to show it to Lum as an evidence that i did play that game. Hahahahahahahahahaha. i'm now left with tutorial for econs. Phew.

Shall go get a shower first before attending the chem and econs lectures. Sad life. It's 1517hrs already. I should be at cca now if school was as per normal. Oh man, i wanna go school. ):

2010-05-24T23:07:00.003+08:00

Okay so i'm nuaing at home now instead of renee's house cause i'm too lazy to pack my stuffs and find my way there. Hahaha.

HBL is torturing me already. Oh man, for the first time; I WANT TO GO SCHOOOOOOL ):
that made me realise that things have changed and probably i should rid that idea out. rawr.

have faith, restart, hold on.

2010-05-24T19:11:00.003+08:00

taking an icy cold shower after a run feels shiokkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. (Y)

hbl tomm. hope everything goes well. and i'm gonna stay overnight at spouse's house tonight! Yayyyyyyy! (:

the truth;

2010-05-22T22:51:00.005+08:00

(via happythings)

i am so confused about the stuffs i have to do for HBL. The teachers are spamming us with mails like there is no tomorrow and all i do is to open it, scan through, click 'back', star that mail and leave it alone. Hahahaha.

last week of official school. (Y) Full day on Monday, yayyy! But i've interact and i think it's our last visit to mdm goh's house. Oh man, i'm really gonna miss her. ): ~~and her compliments of how well i can do housework. (HAHAHA)~~ the very first time i went to her house she requested me to pick 4 small pieces of paper out of the 9 that had been sprawled out on the table. Yahhh, for her to buy lottery. lol &i doubt the number came up anyway. i am no lucky kid. Hahaha. ONE YEAR PASSED JUST LIKE THAT. ZOMGZ. can time stop going so fast. >:(

went back to church on fri night and andre who was a victorian for batch `89 (i think) shared with us that he never knew aliens existed till he went VJ. Hahaha, jokeee. but i think it's still a status quo can. HEH.

Oh, we went to support justina for her baptism today! (: It was pretty nostalgic when i relived the memory of my baptism too! it was just last year on the 24th Feb and oh goshhhhhhhhh, ONE YEAR PASSED JUST LIKE THAT. ZOMGZ. can time stop going so fast. >:((

graceeeey i want Frolickkkkkkkkk. Can we go eat after church tomm pleaseeee.

june hols is the time to gear up and start muggggggggggggggggggging.

everyone loves studying yeah(:

2010-05-20T20:19:00.003+08:00

something kinda happened today which led me thinking about some stuffs. during math lecture i realised that the friendships made in PL can never be reflected exactly the same way in vj. there seems to be something missing, and i just can't find it.

&F.P i am really glad that you could totally understand me. i thought i was just being over sensitive.

i really miss being back in PL.

i never thought that i would feel so small and helpless like the day i first entered vj again.

RAWR.

TGFeverything;

2010-05-19T23:58:00.006+08:00

(via staree)

This comic strip is instant laughter inducing. Hahahahahahahaha.

Kay anyway, i am so glad that i wont be taking anymore SPAs anymoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee(: After like what, obscenely NINE SPAs for Os, with additions of 4 SPAs for As, I'M FINALLY DONE WITH ALL THE EXPERIMENTS.

(side note: my bro is listening to the overrated Nobody song inside his room. &i think it's on a loop or something cause it has been like 15 mins already and he's still at it. Strange. Okay, the song surprisingly ended.)

On blogging proper, these 2 days of SPAs have really enabled me to see how God works in my life once more. :) Like for bio, because i ended my experiment relatively early, i had the luxury of time to check and re check and re re check and re re re (x infinity) check my answer script to spot for mistakes. And seriously, checking your answers over and over again is boring/: In the end, when i was about to give up on checking, something didn't feel quite right so decided to pray to God that He will show me the mistakes i carelessly made and overlooked should there be any. AND He did, TWICE. :) &because of that, i didn't lose the marks which i was about to. YAYness. AND AND AND for today's chem, it was the LAST ONE MINUTE, when i opened my eyes after i prayed, i had this sudden epiphany that i didn't multiply the concentration of H+ ions!! Omggg, i had to race against the madly ticking second hand of the clock to re calculate all my values. Almost died of excessive heart palpitations can. Hahaha, and yeaaaaaaaaa i didn't lose the marks again!! Heh heh heh. I am really so thankful to God. :)

You know the feeling of after prayers when God powerfully made you see the careless mistakes that you missed out before no matter how many times you checked already feels a little disturbing in the good way and undoubtedly awesomeeeeee. (Y)

My God He's so mighty, so cool, so real.

2010-05-17T22:39:00.005+08:00

if you give up without even trying, it just goes to show that you're letting yourself down, especially so when you have already done so much previously and it's dumb to just forget about everything. Besides, whatever you're thinking or assuming might not be necessarily true, simply because you're not me.
never would you know how i will feel. rawr.

dim the spotlights;

2010-05-16T21:15:00.009+08:00

This week is gonna be tough. /: Having SPAs on tue and wed consecutively. AND mon i have cca till 5pm. ): adding on, i realised there are really many many MANY topics tested for CT2. How am i gonna finish studyinggggggggggggggggggggg. omg. though i am a bit comforted by the fact that at least i'm not tested everything that i've learnt so far, but stillllllllllll...

moving on, my bro went back to resort today. and he was singing some today is book in/out day song. hahaha he's so cute. come on ed, POP is approaching(:

anyway, interact installation is over. (Y) the scenes of how much i resented into being a part of the exco still remain in my mind. and i am glad that i didn't quit, thanks to all those who came forward to advice and encourage me. Seriously speaking, though i might not be as close to some, but i think they're really great people to work with. :) VJ interact club FTW! ♥

i reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally need some motivation in studying. ): sighhhhhhzxzxzx.

the sudden downpour screwed my plans of running. ahh well, shall go bathe now. &i have yet to discover why am i so afraid of thunder. /:

you never said it would be this hard.

2010-05-14T21:50:00.000+08:00

(via ache)

this is highly amusing. (Y)

2010-05-13T20:26:00.002+08:00

yayyyy my bro is back in 2 hours timeee.

apart;

2010-05-12T23:21:00.003+08:00

1 MORE DAY!!!

&my bro with the hearsay of him getting singlet tanlines and.. hot abs (hopefully HAHA) is officially back :D

lalala

2010-05-11T21:21:00.004+08:00

(via sanityofbeauty)

Can anyone rmb what's the name of this cartoon?! Omg, my fav childhood show!! (apart from Barney) I miss being a kid. ._.

i'm starting to love the song Cry by Kelly Clarkson. :)

2 moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee days!!!!!

is it open yet, can i open my eyes?

♥

2010-05-09T21:49:00.002+08:00

Well done blossommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!! (L)

I LOVE YOU :)

superstar;

2010-05-06T20:56:00.005+08:00

My Fathers' and Mothers' Day presents. :) Spent the whole of this afternoon sewing and ironing them and i'm so very proud to say that the needle didnt prick me at all! :D Maybe one day i shall go open a sewing shop and do that for a living. (:

yah right, confirm close down in 1 day.

Anyway, i think i'm gonna give my dad his one on Mothers' day as well. HEH. :)

On a lighter note, the trip to NUS was an eye opener, apart from the lecture. I think arts people are kinda cool, and they must have really heavy right brain to think of such obscure yet abstract designs. (Y) and i'm having second thoughts about surviving in that industry already. Probably shall continue to stick to my occupation as a rich tai tai.

All tests for this week finally came to an end(: screwed econs paper today, but oh well. Tomorrow is really gonna be a carefree day for me. Yay.

and i'm drowning myself in ribena for vitamin C cause the flu bug is like perennial. -.-

TRY.

eenie meenie;

2010-05-03T20:29:00.006+08:00

(via paperhentai)

i could very much make do with this right now. just by looking at it already makes my appetite better. (Y)

anw, i studied with spouse at k.m and she was ogling at her angmoh guys (as usual -.- when can you stop cheating on me). probably cause we were both sick, the time wasn't as fruitful as we expected so we relocated all the way to my house.

then i technically slept from 2 to 8 (excluding an hour or so i was awake trying to mug bio). and i had the weirdest dream ever. Like how i went back in time and saw myself as a young kid again. scary much.

ate icecream today again. (Y) And at this rate, i'm surely gonna grow fat in time to come cause my spouse forbids me to go running too. ): on a side note, i think we both have sexy voices now. &we concluded that my symptoms are one day later than hers. Now we know where the virus/bacteria originated from. tsk.

moving onnnnn, school's in tomm! Wed is da arts day &i'm so looking forward to it cause we're going to NUS school of design! :D

kay, time to go. i cant breatheeee. /:

world behind my wall;

2010-05-01T23:55:00.005+08:00

this is what happened when the friends you hang out with are already sick, adding on the the fact that you have low immunity because the doctor advised you to not consume any fruits.

the flu bug is killing me. horrible. ):

better in time;

2010-04-29T22:21:00.006+08:00

why are all things going wrong this week. my heart feels burdened seeing everyone around me so upset. ): CHEER UP BLOSSOMMMM! ♥Everything will get better and yes, the bad days will indeed roll away!

3 days in the army and my bro is doing fine. yay, at least this something positive.

If all I had was one last prayer,

I'd pray it 'cause I know You're always listening.

If I could raise up high and catch a glimpse of every eye,

I would make them believe what I feel inside.

I'd guess the one that keeps me going no matter how tough things are now (and gonna be), is definitely God. He's always the One I can draw strength from, both physically and mentally. And i really mean it.

'Cause I, I know You're there,

I know You see me, I know You hear me.

I can find You everywhere.

2010-04-28T00:22:00.002+08:00

http://www.funnyphotos.net.au/right-left-brain/

OMG TAKE A LOOK AT THAT LINK.

I TOOK LIKE 1 HR 45 MINS TO PERCEIVE IT ANTICLOCKWISE.

PERSEVERANCE PAYS OFF.

&never knew that i was right brain dominated. hahaha.

):

2010-04-27T22:38:00.004+08:00

my bro is off into armyyyyyyyy!

there will be no one to crash my pull-out bed in the middle of the night (cause it was claimed that my room is cooler)

there will be no one to eat my left over rice w/o dishes.

there will be no one who to fight with me over the desktop.

&my mom says there will be no one to watch the long draggy drama late at night with her anymore. Haha, my mom is so kewt.

it feels different not having him around and especially at the thought that he's in army. ARMY. omg. How ironic that it would be all be a different feeling should he go overseas for holiday himself or at normal school camps.

i realise i'm not that kind who will tear and give that ohnoyoucannotseparateus hug when he left and marched off to his dorm, the official separation to the arduous route where boys become men. Actually no one in my family does. Probably that's where i got my genes from. hehh.

but despite all these, i miss my bro already. ):

jesus take the wheel;

2010-04-26T00:34:00.004+08:00

amidst the busyness, i tend to forget, i tend to get too preoccupied, i tend to get sucked into the world of my own.which is probably why i'm feeling all so weak at the same time.

Night jogging helps to clear your mind off stuffs. and as the music filtered through my head, some lyrics were astoundingly distinctive that i couldn't help but know that God is speaking.

NFB: Never felt better.

You'll never let me go. You'll always be in control.

bugg;

2010-04-24T00:25:00.003+08:00

;my secondary sch shoes after sustaining with ink :) Spot the names of the Loo-sers! ♥

Hi everyoneee. it's time to blog again since my blog is really getting like conspicuously dead as usual. Better keep this short cause i'm really tired after the 5 days of school and is thoroughly sleep deprived. ):

Thank God the photoquiz is over. First major FAC event ever. Phewww, one load off. Interact EXCO selection is coming to an end this sun, so yay. FAC EXCO isn't really over yet, but most likely would end very soon too. Oh, and photog's main event of the year is over too, so yay yay yay. It does seem that life is much more better for me now, isn't it. BUT NOOOOOOO, many unwanted tests and projects are lining up, with more tutorials piling till i can't breathe anymore.

Oh man, if only the world comes to an end now. ): Wait, maybe not luh. There are still so many stuffs left undone. Like...... marrying a rich guy and be a rich tai tai who goes to facials, slimming centres and do manicure all day long. :D Ahahaha, kiddinggggg. I'm so gonna be an independent woman :D

okay that's rubbish luh. really jaded and i just felt like ranting some nonsense here. blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Oh right, musicfest 2010 was a blast. :) it would be a larger blast should they distribute my favourite POsh brownies during intermission. and maybe the largest blast IF THEY STOP MAKING FUN OF MY DEAR JUSTIN BIEBER ):

Gonna have a half day next wed. Better than nothing huh. &i am contemplating if i should pon sch on tue. blame it on my luck that i have bio time trial practical and econs test on that day as well, which are so very important too. ughhhhhh. but going to tekong is like once in a lifetime opportunity?!! i wanttttttttttttttttttt /:

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Gonna go back the the doc's tomorrow. No, i mean later. (yea again ):)

and i'd better get going now.

goodnight dears. and rmb that justin bieber rocks.

2010-04-18T22:02:00.004+08:00

(When you get too bored with econs, and this euphonic melody just keeps replaying at the back of your mind(:)

Glorious Day - Casting Crowns

One day when Heaven was filled with His praises
One day when sin was as black as could be
Jesus came forth to be born of a virgin
Dwelt among men, my example is He
Word became flesh and the light shined among us
His glory revealed

Living, He loved me
Dying, He saved me
Buried, He carried my sins far away
Rising, He justified freely forever
One day He’s coming
Oh glorious day, oh glorious day

One day they led Him up Calvary’s mountain
One day they nailed Him to die on a tree
Suffering anguish, despised and rejected
Bearing our sins, my Redeemer is He
Hands that healed nations, stretched out on a tree
And took the nails for me

One day the grave could conceal Him no longer
One day the stone rolled away from the door
Then He arose, over death He had conquered
Now He’s ascended, my Lord evermore
Death could not hold Him, the grave could not keep Him
From rising again

One day the trumpet will sound for His coming
One day the skies with His glories will shine
Wonderful day, my Beloved One, bringing
My Savior, Jesus, is mine

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nUkb3TiXIcA&playnext_from=TL&videos=vf9SRkK3CYA&feature=rec-LGOUT-exp_fresh%2Bdiv-1r-1-HM

<3 this song much. Like what tiffy mentioned, i think this song is a hit right now. We sang it both for YM and service. Hahaha win. (:

2010-04-16T22:43:00.001+08:00

i'll still thank God no matter what.

Thank You for seeing me through PW.

2010-04-14T23:51:00.002+08:00

Omg, i'm bound to put on like 2388748347kg of fats tmr.

i'm eating my mumsie's birthday cake now.

at 11.51pm, before i go to sleep.

oh crap.

when you fall apart, dry your eyes.

i pray

2010-04-11T00:39:00.003+08:00

physically exhausted.

&my stomach medicine isn't helping my condition at all. ):